A social person

I am a sociable person and I try to maintain friendships
At least for those I treasure ,I make a considerable effort
Now ,its a crunch time for me .Nobody agrees and nobody knows ,what's going on in my mind now
I text ,I call and I pm to no avail .
In my heart ,I thought forget it ,why are people behaving like that suddenly .
Perhaps I am not a dependable enough person to trust .

opinions ,opinions are often mispelled as options ,
You do have a choice .
But my heart is grieving ,for the many hours and years as a friend .
Maybe I said something I shouldn't but you know how I am like
Straight in your face ,no mincing of words all the time
I said I wasnt interested and I didnt care ,
You said you couldn't find someone to trust .
I guess it meant more than it should at that point then .

Let me calm down ,take a rest ,clock a few kilometres ,and give my muscles no rest .
Then soon ,I will come back to you ,pm you something and ask how is it going friend .